I am..

inspired,

loud,

weird,

laughing,

fun,

maybe funny?

Sometimes sad,

usually glad
to be alive.

Godmother,

Godchild,

Niece

and daughter.

Creative,

a dreamer,

musical,

listening
most of the time.

Confused
sometimes,

worried
sometimes.

Feeling awkward,
or excited,

halfway confident
the other half
self-conscious

and

nervous.

Waiting for time
to move faster

or wishing it would
move slower.

Replaying moments
or hours
in my head,
hoping
to never forget.

Remembering,
and forgetting,
caring
and
never regretting.

A writer,
kind of.

Without scheme,
wishing I had one.

Planning for the future,
wondering if I'll make it there.

Making no sense,
to anyone but myself.

Thinking that that's
totally okay
because I get me.

wondering if I really get me..
or...
am I
none of the above,
and just looking at
what I wish I were?